i hate what is going on, i need something to be right. everything is going downhill and i jusut dont see why what did i do to get this, what happened to the way it was why did everything get ripped out from me why does it feel so wrong but then again to him feel so right i hate this feeling it needs to get away i need my life to be put bcak on track' but its not getting there i feel like everything is gone'' i gave it all away to someone, someone who ment the world to me. and whom still does i gave every part of me inside and out and then feeling of it all being ripped to sreds, thrown away isnt what i call a wonderful feeling knowing that i will never get any of it back, my heart, body soul. so lost.