so yesterday i turned 20; two decades. Seems like so long, time and days are going by so fast im just trying to live them all to the fullest. At midnight I was suprised by shots by Johnny, Nick, Rosie, Sam, and Olivia. so that was fun right at midnight haveing fun with some friends. Then went to the rincon which was a great day for the beach even though the water was a little cold I always go in. I made a rule over a year ago no matter whats the weather I have to go in the ocean everytime I go to the beach. It pushes me to do it and I never back out. I love to ocean i could never live somewhere where there is no beach. It is my place to get away from it all, my place of relaxing, my perfect place with friends and to spend the day/night. Then at night the girls came over and we cooked an amazing meal and some drinks and just sat in my living room talking for hours. So it was a good day. But trying to live the moment and days to the fulliest has some drawbacks. Which in turn just brings me into debt more, not good. I have tons of bills since lately i've been like fuck it i wanna have fun and go out and do things i wanna do. If its possible to live my life to the fulliest and do things I am. It just sucks that everything cost money and is expensive. I dont work a lot, thats the drawback to working for a family owned business, i will never get fired and I will go to work when i feel like it. Also going to college taking 18 units doesnt help, it wipes me out and just makes me so drained. I'm over school, its so expensive and im just going to the community college for the time being. I racked up one of my four creditcards doing things I wanna do like skydive, went to Jamaica/cayman islands, short weekend road trip to santa cruz, and just the usual going out to eat, going out dancing, and doing pitch ins for drinks at parties. Which it also doesnt help that I pay around 300 dollars a month for bills that include my health insurance, car insurance (which they just raised to 100 a month and i dont kno why i have never been in an accident or gotten a ticket). and phone bill. I need to get back into the swing of things but i really dont wanna grow up. haha But i cant change that so i just got to suck it up and do it.