crying takes a lot of work and once your done you realize it was a horrible idea to wear make-up. in the end you just look like a raccoon and it takes forever to get off. humm not really sure what to do in my life at the moment, same shit happening but yet feeling different yet the same and still in turn getting fucked over as always tends to happen to me. my life story. getting my hopes ups feeling that everythings wonderful and couldn't possible get any better then BOOM! fall into nothing and everythings gone story of my life. why do i keep getting my hopes up and expecting things when i sohuld no by now nothing works like that for me and i always wlways will just keep getting hurt, the same way over and over and over again. if i knew how to change that i would, but i dont so fuck it.