i love the way it makes me feel when i get woken up by shitty dreams that make me all sad and worried about things i know i shouldn't be worried about. i love the way people say that they can take you places to get stuff takin care of an dthen last minute cancel then decided hours later they will once there both pissed off at eachother I got my permit today! haha and then on next monday the 26th im taking my license since i will be 18 on the 25th. i'll finally get some freedom i go to work, get bitched out by some fucking ugly ass customer who thinks she knows how to run the whole store calling me and my store manager stupid and i can say shit or else we could get fired. then still a little sad try something that usually will cheer me up, and make me forget about the shit from today yea it didnt happen, accually makes me fel worse. now i cant fucking go to sleep, dont feel like talking to anyone and gonna be bored out of my mind until i cry myself to sleep. to stressed and unable to control myself it seems. cant wait to be able to get my freedom and just go out from drives at night when i turn 18 cuz you know what. no one can do shit. my parents cant take away my car since i paid for the entire thing by myself with the money i make at my job, so they didnt help me with it so they cant take it away. i'll be an adult so fuck that and they cant take away my license if they get mad at me, its mine. nothings is really in my way except for this week. onces its over and i can just drive i'll be happy. then i can go whereever i wont, dont ahve to wait for rides from busses or parents or friends, no more walking everywhere to from school to from work etc... over it