i never re-read my entries. since most of the time i only write them in the first place if im upset. So they all sound depressing and like i have a shitty life. But i re-read my completely un-complete and wow. i can remember every feeling, the moment when i wrote that. but yes in that change it brought hard times. but in the end i am completely content. things are going fine with me. its a change but im ok with that. i have been looking back on the past couple years and noticeing changes in my life, changes in myself and i do say i think i have grown up the most in the past two years so far. i'm happy with that, i like who i am and i know im just going to be growning more day by day and my new experiences along the way. the only thing i really really really miss which i have been thinking about so much lately are my friends i havent seen or kept in contact with lately. looking thru old photos and seeing the old good times and just how everyone was and thinking who they are now. i miss so many people mostly the kids that i would be with everyday at school, after school the weekends. Im sorry if i slipped out for a little bit. You all know i care about you so much. i hope to be seeing you soon. I am trying to get incontact and just keep in touch with my loves.