heyness peoples, what is up? not to much. well i lied there is alot of stuffers up but nothing that i really think is that important. i actually got to go to the concert. it was so god damn lame.the bands arent my thing. but i give them thumbs up for playing there and playing music for its a talent. ya know? well the bands that played are called avenged sevenfold. and some other ones that i forgot. me and cambria and max didnt even barely stay that long. ya tonight sucked as always. i really fink i dont like my life that much. but it happens. ya all i could think about is nick. nick nick nick nick nick nick nick nick nick. im soooooo confused about him. i cry all the time and he like doesnt even care. the first time we met i couldnt say anything for he took my breath away and i thought i was going to die. it was kinda lame. then the second time my friend cody was all "im going to tell nick that you like him" and blah blah and i started freaking out and i couldnt breath and everything was all blurry then i fucking passed out. and i was hypervenilating for like and hour but what seemed like 100 years but ya. and i passed out that many times too. it was lame. and its just for a guy who doesnt even care about me. ok anyways. the third time was soooo wonderful. we hung out and it was just us two and we were walking down on main street we were gonna walk through the park but he was to scared. it was so cute. but ya we went to the beach and the pier and he was all scared cause the pier was shaking. we told each other how we felt and that we liked each other. and we shared a hot chocolate. but that night went to hell. now whenever i see him he fucking walks away and doesnt talk to me. ya that night on the pier and stuff was exactly 10 saturdays ago. i loved it but like i said it went to hell. why do i love him if he treats me like shit? i dont get it. i dont even want a relationship with him. i just wnat to get to know him better and hang out. but i think he thinks more. which is lame and he doesnt give me the chance to tell him. i wish he would just give me a chance. i feel super lame for evening caring about someone who hates me. well im just at lolo's house. im bored and sad as fuck. im off like a dirty shirt. ttyl byeness all. your lord and master. Kaysi.