my mom just left and i told myself i wouldnt cry. but i cant help it. and its really stupid that i am just realizing that i love her. it was so hard for to love her in the past. she wasnt my mom. she was a skitzo freak and i hope my skitzo doesnt get like hers did. but everyone and everything that i love gets taken away from me. everything even if its sooner or later. it all goes away. and now its really hard for me to love someone cause the person i love well it seems like she doesnt care. but i dont know.