heyness, the concert was fun. yayness. omg i was talking to nick and i guess i ditched him today and he was all kinds sad. then i told him that i love him and he said he loved me. so i am happy. yay. i cant stop finkin of it. its nice. im soo happy. shit no one will ever know. i feel bad for he always ditched me and now i ditched him. but i didnt want to be all like near him and following him because he like gets scared or something so i just backed off and i fink i hurt his feelings. hahahhahahaha o well. i think i am just going to type the random things that come into my mind. ok once when i was super little i went to my moms house and my mom and dad were fighting and i was supposed to stay with my mom but for some reason i couldnt and i remember grabbing onto my mom and then she was trying to grab me but my dad was on the other side and pulling me away from her and i was crying and screaming. i hate my dad sometimes but i know he loves me but we are going through alot of shit and he doesnt know how to love for he had a bad childhood and now he is afraid of love becasue his family didnt show it to him. so he doesnt know how. then i really miss my mom because she is in a mental hospital. i miss her. i also miss nick. he said he loved me more than i love him. hahahha not i dont think that is possible unless i dont know something.....he was happy i went to his concert. heheheheh. gtg byeness loves smoochies, and huggles be safe make the right choices im off like a dirty shirt. your lord and master Fahzamomma