wow first journal entry on a new site... Oook! so i'm probally in one of the worst moods i've been in for a looooong time, and let me tell you nothing is making it better, let me fill you in, YESTERDAY Jay left for Alberta for guess how long....4FUCKING MONTHS ya 4 fucking months with out my queer ne wayz what else, hmm well today, i got a fucking teacher telling my fucknig suply that me and sum friends weren't doing shit all in class (which was TECH. true BUT he didn't need to know that) so that just sarted today to be shit. then other things happend (wont go into), so i went home and passed up on lunch b/c i was so pissed, i just poped a pill and left for co-op...HUGE FUCKING MISTAKE!!!, my boss, ya she was a complete and utter fucking bitch! i did all HER fucking work THEN THE FUCKNIG BITCH HAS THE NERVE TO YELL AT ME FOR NOT DOING MY HOMEWORK!!! Since WHEN the fuck was it her bis!? so then my mother picked me up just when i thought maybe she would be nice....NOPE SHE FREAKS ON ME for somthing i didn't focus on her b/c by then pretty much everything was red and i couldn't even see straight. so then after when i FINALLY got home, i called Chris up and he told me he'd come down if i wanted him to, which by this time i had to be with a friend, so of corse i said yes, and so he came down and knocked on my door his car was running so i ran outside to it, and then guess whos sitting in the front fucking seat....HIS FUCKING GIRLFRIEND*head blows up* honestly that was just the icing on the whole shit cake fuck i was so upset, i got home bout a half an hour ago b/c i couldn't take them making out in front of me, oh and i dont know if you know this but i have this huge thing about cheating and everything or playing around, and i took a vow to never do it and a few days ago i asked him how long he'd been with her and he said "i donno 4 or 5 months" 4 OR 5 FUCKING MONTHS!!!! this kid made out with me at the fucking MCR CONCERT and that wasn't 4 or 5 months ago! so now i'm pretty much everything i hate wow great day for me huh? oh ya and the guy i have a huge crush on most likely thinks im a total nob (again won't go into)oh and its so werid b/c i've been seeing him EVERYWHERE (hey no complaints at least sum joy while i'm being put through hell!) and and this is great Chris just called me and asked why i was acting all angry and y i left so soon, so i told him y, and as usual it's my fault! wtf!? APARENTLY I DO EVERYTHING WRONG, I'M THE FUCK UP, I'M FUCKING WORHTLESS WELL FUCK THIS guess what he said "hey you had your chance" ya sorry i didn't feel like help play sum girl what ever,oh and more more thing, im still having feelings for ppl that i shouldn't so that's great !, Anyways im going to go before my head actually blows up, time to go sit in my room ,call jay and tell him all this, then most likely read my book of the dead and wish i was one of the dead ppl - later, comment if you want~*~Emo Slut~*~