Allright. Ok its wednesday, I didn't go to school again, and today i'm glad I didn't, I've never been so pissed off, so down, so fucking hurt, then I am/feel right now. I think this is the worst mood i've been in, in a long damn time and I really fucking hate it. Sooo I got up at 11, sat around, showered, sat around, cleaned my room, poped some pills, felt sorry for myself, ran through some things that have me down, talked to my sis. Then my mother came home, and thats where, Lifehouse - Hanging By A Moment my pissed mood began, My sister wants to go to a movie, but I don't feel like going i'd rather go tomorrow when my dads home so he can take us, and maybe ill be feeling better tomorrow, So my mom opens her mouth saying that she'll drive us to the center so me an my sis can go out for dinner then go to the movie at famous, 2 little fucking probs with that, 1: I can't fucknig eat and 2: I fucking hate gonig to famous players and I don't want to fucking go!>=( God damn I really hate my family I really want to run away for more reasons then 1. Fort Minor - Believe Me Well so as you know yesterday morning I was in the best mood ever b/c I finally got the My Chem dvd, but that mood soon left me at night. I was on msn talking to everyone, then Alex pops up to talk to me which made me happy, and he asked me if I could talk and I can now so I told him that I could, so he said he was gunna call me which made me soooo happy I love talking to him and I missed talking to him, *sigh*, So he caleld me and we were talking then it all turned south, and we stoped talking, still on the phone, but we said nothing, I said 2 things after it went silent and he didn't say anything which made me feel like shit. It feels like were breaking up but he doesn't want to say it, or something, I'm scared, I really do love him *sigh* things jsut suck that way for me=(, So after my phone died I just felt like shit b/c I think were not gunna last, and that scares me tons=(, But anyways, stupid fagg sister wants to go now *yay, not*, so i'll update when I get home. Stay Chemical ~*~Razor Blades & Pocket Knives-Emo Slut~*~ Edit... Title: And If You Die, I Want To Die With You Mood: Depressed Song: System Of A Down - Lonely Day Danielle says I think to much about relationships, about everything really, for the most part, I agree with her lol. Well I ended up goign to dinner and a movie with my sister[yesh she sucked me into it] what can I say i'm weak, well that's a lie but I just didn't feel like putting up a fight lol thats my excuss and i'm sticking by it =[ Soo we went to Caseys. I didn't want to eat, so I ordered a Milk shake lol, then my sister yelled at me so I ordered Pasta, Not much of it was eaten but meh she wanted me to order =p. So not much happend their, we ate, payed, talked, left for movies So we went to zee movies and see V For Vendetta, and it twas fuckin' amazing! 20 stars outta 5 lol It had a great plot, blood, and stuff blew up, my kinda movie lolz, Kinda wish I was with Alex insted of my sis, *sigh* i'm such a Love-a-holic, I sopose I could just talk to Alex about everything, but i'm scared....why am I such a loser? wait no one answer that... So after the movie we went to chapters, and this cute guy who was working their was totaly flirting with my sister!! and she was flirting back!! lol it was funny=p, then me an her were sitting outside, and I kept cussing out all these ppl who kept stareing at us=p It was fun. So not this weekend but next weekend, on the Saturday[April 1st♥] Danielle is FINALLY coming over=D!!!! i'm thrilled shes soooo much fun, I had originally planed to go to the Rides Again concert, but then this idea came up, and so I was still gunna go but I was gunna bring her too, and just now I decided to not go, and she's a-ok with it, I jsut want ta hang with her and its kinda hard to hang at a concert lol, So were gonig to the movies and seeing The Hills Have Eyes insted=p it's gunna be fun, and I told her that right when she falls asleep im gunna poke her side and run away so it wakes her up and freaks her out lol!, So ya that will rock. Well I thoguht I would actually go to school tomorrow, but I have to go back to the Dentist guy for a check up thing, so I could only go for 2 classes and I have a spare in one of them so their isn't a point to going so i'm not lol. Buttttttt right now i'm tired, and i'm falling asleep at the key bord, so i'm gunna stop this and go to bed, Stay Chemical! for now ~*~Razor Blades & Pocket Knives-Emo Slut~*~