*sigh* Sooo it's been along time eh... Well not much has happend. Well I learned something this past few days. A broken heart can actually be broken again.... Soo on my crush note I gave up on all of them except the one I really NEED to get over *sigh* Well I seen him today...Everywhere. And I actually had to hold back the tears today it was that bad and i'm sorry to say this but I need to say it... I Love Him... I don't know why, and I don't even think he cares about me, But I Love Him... If I could change how I felt I would but I can't *sigh*... Soo math sucked we started a new unit and I dont get it At All! soo i'm think i'll be seein my 70 go way down until the next unit *sigh* When me, Kaitlyn & Noelle got to gym we didn't know if anything was gunna go on b/c or the Talent show...so guess who was in the gym the whole time...*sigh* so we played soccer and I did pretty much nothing except talk to Noelle, Kaitlyn & Jenette..HAPPY B-DAY JENETTE!.. So in away it was fun, they had music on so I we were singing along=)...So them with the last 20 mins of class we were asked to set up chairs so we all got changed...but Kaitlyn and I didn't wanna do it so we stood their then he came over to tell us to help out, And Kaitlyn acted like a complete bitch to him (NOT going into detail) So, I went and helped out b/c I didn't want him to hate me, and then Kaitlyn said I was whiped by him... Maybe I am, I don't know. I know Kaitlyn means well, I mean shes one of my best friends and she looks out for me and she doesn't want me to get hurt, but in some sence does she not want me to be happy? or maybe she did/say that b/c she does wnat me to be happy... *sigh* I wish things weren't so complcated='(... So mom took me out for lunch and it was fun she kinda made me feel a little better but ya... So the whole afternoon was the talent show excpet for the like 20 or so mins we had to stay in calls untill they called us down, so I talked to Randy so I didn't die from boredness *lol*. Well on too the talent show, their was alot of good acts and ALOT of complete shit acts... Sadly it was somewhat ruined b/c it really wasn't well orginized and i was really fucking tired of hearing "sorry folks were haveing a techncal difficuly" and It was tired of seeing the same ppl like 5 times but what ever, The thing that really pissed me off is that they kicked out a good band *SORROWS OF SUNDAY* and then the stupid *TALENTLESS* bush face was still in!!! like WTF!!! its pretty fucking low that they kick sum1 out the day of, and they don't let them finish the last show... but what ever >=( So now i'm home sitting here all by my self, nothing to do but home work....Thank SATAN tomorrow is a half day...Other then that I keep thinking about things that just make me more sad....... I guess I need to stop thinking for good. well im tired of writing so i'm gunna go listen to depressing songs and hate life some more *EMO* lol So for now ~*~Razor Blades & Pocket Knives-Emo Slut~*~ P.s RANDOM SURVEY Basic Questions Real First Name: Heather Middle Name: Lee Anne Last Name: Milling Do you like your name: Not really Were you named after anyone: No Who: Birthday: October 30th Current age: 16 Where you were born: DURTTTTTTY SHWA!!! "YE YEA!!!"*ghetto* where you live now: In A Box You and your love Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: No Whats their name: Do you have a crush? Yea Do they know you like the: Yea Do you like anyone: Yea Are you a virgin: No How far have you gone: Figure It Out Are you in love: Yes Have you ever been in love: Still Am ='( Who was your first crush: Umm...Shane*fuck bag* First date: first REAL date was with Alex First person you held hands with: like I remember Kissed: first REAL kiss would be alex... had sex with: Now why the FUCK Would I Say? Your looks and body Face Shape: Face-ish skin tone: Pale Hair colour: Black & Red Hair length: Short..Emo *lol* Eye colour: Blue Eye Shape: Eye-ish Do you wear contacts or glasses: Sometimes how about braces? have/had them: Nope Do you have long eye lashes: Sure... Do you wear makeup- Yup What kind of makeup do you use: Dark What shoe size do you wear: 10 Ring size: I don't know Pant size: I don't know Shirt size: XL How tall are you: 5"7 Happy with it: Sure... How much do you weigh: Alot Happy with it: Nope You and school What school do you sttend: Donevan What grade are you in: 11 What classes are you in: Math, Gym, English & Home Studies Whats you favorite one: Gym Least?: Home Design... how many schools have you ever attended: 3 Are you in any clubs: Nope Are you in any plays? Nope Are you full of school spirit: No It's HELLA Lame Ever get detention: Ypu Ever get suspended: Yup Ever get expelled: Nope You and Sports Favorite sport: None. Least favorite sport: Um... Favorite sports team: Um... Least favorite sports team: Um... Do you play any sports: Did Which ones: baseball Are you good: no, hence they not playing anymore What sport would you lie to be better at: none Is cheerleading a sport: Sure what sport do you like to watch: hockey You and music: Favorite type of music: Emo/Screamo Favorite band: My Chemical Romance Favorite song: Right now... I'd say Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tradgeies Least fav type of music: Country Least favorite band OR singer: Britney Spears Least favorite song: Slut Slace For You - Britney Spears Do you play an instrument: Kinda Do you like to dance: Like A Loser Sing? In the shower=p You and Your Friends Best: Danielle & Kaitlyn Nicest: Marina cutest: Josh lol Shyest: Umm Noelle I guess Friendliest: Definatly Marina *lol* Dorkiest: Danielle *lol* Prettyist: All Of Mm Sweetest: All Of Em Most Reliable: Danielle Best singer: I donno they dont really sing Kaite I guess Best dancer: MARINA Best at an instrument: Kaitlyn... I guess=S Best artist: Kaitlyn Biggest appetite: Kaitlyn *lol*