Allright.
Life just loves to throw me fucking curve balls...
Well. Today was depressing... I got up around noon, noone was home, yet again, Sat around the house, cleaned my room, went on msn, talked on the phone. Then people came over... I wasn't in the mood for company, Luckily they didn't stay long seeing as it was just me home... After they left I sat on my couch, put on my Fall Out Boy cd and stared off into space for about an hour, I was like in a trance... I was so "spaced out" that I forgot I was talking to ppl on msn, my bad lol, Well sitting on my 'Crying Couch' I just thought of everything that is going on in my life,
Fort Minor - Believe Me
And it really tripped me out, lol, On the 'plus side' [If you want to call it that] I came to relize what 'Love' is, like i've come to relize what it means to me. Don't know if I should post it because its pretty straight forward but why not:
Love is, when a person cares so much for you, that they will risk it all just for a second to be with you, because at least in that second you are together. It's love when your both surounded by hundreds of people and both of you instantly wonder where the other has gotten to, So you can find each other,
Fort Minor - Cigarettes
Love isn't like it is made to be in the movies, It's hard, it takes alot out of you, and sometimes you really do think about giving it all up, But you can't. And for me, Love is now all so simple. It's a person who just cares, tells you jokes to hear you laugh, kisses you when you need it most, just holds you when you just can't be alone. Pays for a movie, even if you tell them you have money and you'll pay. They stay on the phone with you,
Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away
even if you've fallen asleep or can't think of a thing to say, Just to hear you breatheing. Love is different things to different people, but usually everyone has one thing in common...You can't live with out it. And when you fall 'In Love' you know it's love.
So that's my view on love, Crazy I know but everything always is.
Madonna - Sorry
Well, It's now easter, so happy easter to whom cares...Today I have a party, I was SOPOSED to have one yesterday....
Butttttt it was cancled, ah well shit happens.
Metallica - Nothing Else Matters
Oh ya! I watched "Elizabethtown" today, and It wasn't that bad. But it's not something I'd buy. But whatever thats my opinion.
Man...today really did suck...=(
On Monday Linds says their is some movie thing happening and that I should come with, I think I will, friends could help my mood lol... God damn, why am I so down tonight... I honestly feel so lost.
Next week i'm only at school for 2 days then i'm off to New York and i'm really excited=). I'm gunna miss him though...
Well i'm actually really tired so I think I'll talk to Linds for a bit then hit the hay.
4 Days Till New York
And.
26 Days Till The Fall Out Boy Concert
So For Now...
Panic! At The Disco - The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage
Stay Chemical!
~*~Razor Blades & Pocket Knives-Emo Slut~*~
ILU HEATHER!
Your a good friend :)
-L
ps. movies are going to rock!
pss. I want brownies! lmao