Ya so i've decided on something FUCK LOVE! I used to be all for it but i've decided it's just not worth the heartbreak, everytime I fall in "love" it always ends up hurting me, why is it worth it!? I'm so sick of the anger, sick of the pain, sick of it all!, So I quit, To All The Men Out Their, Thank-You Love Just Lost A Solider I'm not slaming on all men mostly b/c I dont have enough room and I could never bad mouth: Gerard Way, Mikey Way, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, Bob Bryar, Dani Filth, Ville Valo, Johnny Deep And Bert McCracken., I'm just bashing a few men I know who have done a great job on making me believe love is just a word that means nothing. Okkk *sigh* so I feel better now that I got that off my chest... Ok so maybe I won't completely give up on love, but just for a long while, I do Love the butterflies in your stomach, the whole can't eat, can't sleep with out thinking of that person, and the together forever, but right now i just feel like its not worth it, I'm sick of the pain. So on with today, Today was uneventful. Took the bus to meet up with danielle, that was fun, really cold. Hung out at skewl till class started, went to photography did my Vampire Freaks ad. And I have to say Nadine really came through, She did her hair, remembered the shirt, and did her make-up and the end product looks great! I was soo glad she did that for me(=. So after class, I hung out with Danielle again, then went home, had lunch, and then went to mall to work. When i got to the mall I stoped to talk to Calender Lady, and her stalker came and right when I got their she grabed her purse and asked me to walk her to her job interview so he didn't follow her =p. So anyways work was great. My boss had the day off and the stock was all done except for one rack that needed to be censored then I just hung skirts, and listened to my music, it was great! after work I talked to calender lady for awhile and ended up missing my bus, so I called Donald to see how he was and help me pass the time, I ended up taking the 2 King home b/c it was their and I was freezing my ass off, So when I got home I went on msn, talked to ppl and thats all i've been doing since, and now I think im going to go have a shower or go for a long walk, to clear my head from all the anger and hurt i'm feeling right now, and the only person that knows why i'm pissed/sad is Meaghan, b/c i've been talking to her about it for about and hour or so. And shes the only person that needs to know so don't ask me whats wrong ok? I don't want to talk about it =(. So For Now ~*~Razor Blades And Pocket Knives-Emo Slut~*~ --FIRSTS-- :-: first best friend = Nadia (Kindergarden) :-: first job = None. :-: first screen name = PickleBear69;) :-: first self purchased cd = Drowing Pool -Sinner :-: first funeral = My Uncle's (Yesterday) :-: first piercing/tattoo = My ears, No tat. :-: first enemy = Jeni .a. *Bitch* :-: first big trip = Montreal --LASTS-- :-: last big car ride = Umm Coming Home From The My Chemical Romance Concert. :-: last good cry = Just Now:'( :-: last library book checked out = Scared To Death.(Grade 9 Isu) :-: last beverage drank = Diet Sprite Zero :-: last food consumed = One Cookie. :-: last phone call = Donald :-: last time showered = Last Night.(Soon To Be Right Now) :-: last shoes worn = Black Converse :-: last cd played = Thrice - Vheissu :-: last annoyance = Meaghan Knows That One *lol* :-: last shirt worn = The One I'm Wearing :-: last website visited = Obviously This One --DESCRIBE YOUR…-- :-: wallet = Black, With Emily Strange On It :-: underwear = Black With Skulls On It :-: tattoos = None. :-: hair = Long, Dyed Black And Red. :-: eyes = Blue :-: hands = Umm Normal Hands With The Words "Call Donald @ 7"(Which I Did=p) :-: feet = EWWW DON'T SAY OR WRITE THAT WORD SAY FLIPPER!!!!!+o( :-: room = Umm My BED room Is Painted Blood Red, One Wall Says "My Chemical Romance" and Has All MCR Poster On It, Another Wall Says "Slipknot" On It And Has Slipknot Posters On It, The Other 2 Walls Have Pix Of My Friends And Other Random Bands. Umm, I Have A Bed And A T.v:D :-: boyfriend/girlfriend = FUCK LOVE :-: parents = Umm They Are Old? --THIS OR THAT-- :-: [boxers or briefs] = Boxers :-: [plaid or striped] = Ummm Salt? :-: [okay, ok, or o.k.] = Okie! :-: [bright colors or dark colors] = Obviously Dark :-: [tic-tacs or certs] = Tic-Tacs! :-: [sunshine or rain] = Rain :-: [rain or snow] = Snow :-: [sun or moon] = Moon :-: [silver or gold] = Silver :-: [silk, cotton, or flannel sheets] = Black & Red Silk Sheets. :-: [preps or freaks] = Much Love To My Own Kind !~!Freaks Rock!~! :-: [popcorn-with or w/out butter] = Butter I Guess :-: [ketchup, mayo, mustard, or relish] = Ketchup??? :-: [shampoo + conditioner in one or separate] = Seperate --IF YOU WERE_______, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?-- :-: an animal = Bat So I Could Turn Into A Vampire! :-: a fruit = Kiwi (Why Does ANYONE Want To Know This?) :-: a vegetable = Umm I Donno A Turnip "Uhh Ya Sure." (Again Why Does Anyone Want To Know This?) :-: a color = Obviously Black :-: a bug = SPIDER (I Know It's Not A Bug) --SHORT ANSWER-- :-: are you smart? = Nope :-: do you like onions? = Nope :-: what instruments can you play? = Bass :-: what words do you overuse? = Definatily :-: do you sleep with socks on? = Never :-: are you ticklish? = Sadly Yes... :-: are you shy? = Can Be :-: do you talk to yourself? = Sure Do :-: do you have a basement or an attic? = Both :-: did you go to preschool? = Nope :-: are you a morning person? = Obviously Not! --FRIENDS-- :-: who you are closest to = The True Friends That Stick By Me Through Everything :-: who makes you laugh the most = Danielle :-: who is the most trustworthy = Kaitlyn, Danielle, Meaghan :-: who has the best house = Danielle Lol She Has About 10 Of Them *lol* :-: who is the most daring = Kaitlyn! :-: who cares more about their hair then anything else = DEFINATILY DANIELLE :-: who is most likely to become an actress/actor = Hmmm Danielle :-: who makes you cry the most = Meaghan Know The Anwser To This One Too *lol* :-: who is the craziest = KAITLYN! :-: who is the most flirty = Danielle! :-: who is most likely not going to call = Meaghan (I Don't Think She Even Has My Number *lmao*) LAYER TWO: -- your heritage: Irish And Some Other Stuff -- your fears: Little Spiders , Being Alone -- your perfect pizza: A Good One -- goal you'd like to achieve: Find A Guy Who Actually Loves Me And Isn't Full Off Shit LAYER THREE: -- your most overused phrase on MSN: LMFAO! -- your thoughts first waking up: Damnit... -- your thoughts at bedtime: I Wonder If Gerard Way Sleeps In The Nude LOL! *Drools* -- your most missed memory: Seeing My Chemical Romance For The First Time And Meeting Mikey Way & Patrick Stumph :D LAYER FOUR: -- pepsi or coke: Pepsi -- mcdonald's or burger king: Wendy's -- single or group dates: Single -- adidas or nike: Nither -- lipton iced tea or nestea: Lipton -- chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate -- cappuccino or coffee: French Vanilla LAYER FIVE: -- smoke: Did -- curse: Fuck No -- sing: Only Around My Possy:P And IN The Shower -- take a shower everyday: Yup -- have a crush: Yea Not That It Matters -- do you think you've been in love: Yes -- want to go to college: Yup -- like(d) high school: Psshhh It's JAIL -- want to get married: Yup ( Strapless Black Dress, With Tiara, Black Roses And My Brides Maids Will Wear Blood Red Strapless Dresses:) -- believe in yourself: Nope -- get motion sickness: Sometimes -- think you're a health freak: Umm Obviosuly Not -- get along with your parent(s): Sometimes -- like thunderstorms: -- play an instrument: Bass LAYER SIX: in the past month... -- drank alcohol: Yes -- smoked: Yes -- done a drug: Yes -- had sex: No -- gone to the mall?: I WORK THERE I GO THERE EVERY FUCKING DAY -- eaten an entire box of oreos: Ew No They Are Gross -- eaten sushi: Never -- been on stage: Nope -- been dumped: Nope -- gone skating: Nope -- made homemade cookies: Nope -- gone skinny dipping: Nope -- dyed your hair: Sure Did -- stolen anything: Nope LAYER SEVEN: ever... -- played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes... -- if so, was it mixed company: Nope Just Me And One Guy -- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: OH YEA -- been caught "doing something": Next Question... -- been called a tease: Yup -- gotten beaten up: I'm The Beater Not The Beaten -- changed who you were to fit in: NO DISPITE WHAT PEOPLE SAY LAYER EIGHT: -- age you hope to be married: Umm 25-30 -- numbers and names of children: 2 Jack, Damon "HisNameHere" and Kaitlyn, Danielle "HisNameHere" -- describe your dream wedding: Dark, Wedding Pic In A Grave Yard,*Anwser From Above:*( Strapless Black Dress, With Tiara, Black Roses And My Brides Maids Will Wear Blood Red Strapless -- where you want to go to college: Sheridan For 2 Year Photography Progam Then To Film School -- what do you want to be when you grow up: Photographer and Video Director -- what country would you most like to visit: Japan To Take Picture Of Battleship Island LAYER NINE: in a guy/girl.. -- best eye color: A Dark Dark Brown So Dark It Looks Black -- best hair color: Black -- short or long hair: Either Sexi Somewhat Short Emo Hair Or Long Curly Metal Head Hair -- height: As Long As They Aren't Shorter Then Me -- best articles of clothing: Band T-shirt And Pants... -- best first date location: A GOOD Concert -- best first kiss location: Doesn't Matter As Long As Its Romantic LAYER TEN: -- # of drugs taken illegally: I'm Not Going To Anwser That For My Own Safty -- # of people i could trust with my life: 6 -- # of pets you have, what kinds, names: 1, Dog, Rodent(Murphy) -- # of CDs that i own: To Many To Count -- # of piercings: 3 -- # of tattoos: Still None.(Fuck Stop Asking) -- # of scars on my body: Again Not Going To Anwser That To Prevent Myself From Getting Slaped.