I have no way of saying how tiresome it is to serve six tables at the same time. I served over 20 customers today. It was terrifying and thankfully I got some really nice customers. I need to thank my lucky stars. That's all I had stuck in my head is that song from the Seussical...or is it Suessical? I dunno anything anymore...let's go back to school. I need to read more. There is so much that I can't think through right now. It's not like I have a choice any more, but I do. I don't want to hurt anyone. I seem to have done just that. I can not describe how amazing that kiss was though. It seems I've been waiting too long for his kiss again. I just wish it had ended in a little more...um...relieved manner. Is that so bad? I mean...I've waited so long. Can't we just accept it? I just hate how it's only me. I feel played, but at the same time I know I'm not being played. He doesn't do that. I just want him to realize it wasn't his fault...I'm the one to blame. Poor guy...I feel sorry for anyone who puts up with me as long as he has. I just have to hope that the best will turn out for everyone. In the mean-time it's not so bad to cross my fingers...*smiles* he's a keeper anyway...