Well...I feel better, but not fully myself. I owe Meg an apology. I know things just aren't the same. I trust her. Whatever she thinks is best is ok with me. I'm sorry I ever doubted her. I wish we could be as close, but it probably won't happen. Four hours is a long ways, and our lives are just different. I appologize for thinking you might ditch me on purpose. I hope you are doing ok. I don't want to hurt you. Sorry. So, I loved the dance with Nate...Snow Ball...so fun! I love dancing with that boy, even when I'm half dead. We have a lot of fun just being fools. We're good at it when we're together. Don't tell him that though...he'll deny he's a fool....such a cocky little boy. *smiles* oh well...can't get one that isn't. He's a good guy. He'll make a wonderful man, someday. I hope I will always know him. I don't know what to say about my roommates. I love them all, but they have issues. I really enjoy K1. She is just so fun to be around and reminds me a lot of myself. She's just really funny. We played games tonight and made cookies...Al joined and we bashed him with gay jokes. He's not really gay, but he's almost more feminine than me. hehe...K2 is so blonde and funny. She has a way of sounding really mean when she is just joking around. You have to know her to understand her sarcasm. I love it! K3 is so talented, but I can't handle the way she goes about things. She's a good cook, yes, but so am I. I don't think she'd take it well if I tried to give her directions to cook. I've probably been cooking just as long as her. To her defense, she actually thanked me for warning her about one aspect of jello. So I'm glad I continue to try and help. She probably feels the same way toward me. Misty is cute, but I don't think me and her click. She's too uptight. More uptight than me, if that is possible. I just dunno what to think. She is so dramatic and so "I'm right" that I just can't spend too much time with her...that's the way K3 is too...I dunno. They're all so interesting. I wish I knew how they thought about me. I dunno when Nate and I should break up. It's so weird to think about. We've been together almost three months now. I'm not sure we'd make a good married couple though. There is so much I'm not interested in getting into arguments about...I just let him get away with a lot. He's not ready for a real relationship. He is too self-serving. The mission will help that. He'll make a great husband and father someday. I love him. I'm just not in love. I'm tired of having relationships though. I'm ready to have just one guy the rest of my life. I hate ending them...I'm not saying I want to get married this next year, but it would be nice if I don't have a boyfriend until I'm sure he'll be my fiance...*sighs* I'm tired of people. Elder Nate Harris sent the family a scripture, "Doctrine and Covenants 6:33-37." My favorite two scriptures were 36 and 37, "36 Look unto me in every though; doubt not,fear not. 37 Behold the wounds which pierced my side, and also the prints of the nails in my hands and feet; be faithful, keep my commandments, and ye shall inheret the kingdom of heaven. Amen." I'm so thankful for what our Father in Heaven has done for me. To send his Only Begotten; and for Jesus Christ to give such great love that he died for me. I do not understand what I could ever do to deserve the strength they give me. I will forever be indebt to the Holy Ghost's presence. I say these things, because they are the only way I can show my gratitude. Therefore I say them in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.