It's been such a long night. First choir, then the band banquet, and lets just end it with a large fire next door! It was soo scary. I don't know how to describe seeing all of those emergency vehicles parked in front of our house. Mom and Sis may not have thought it was our house but my heart sure jumped. I don't want to be homeless. I need the solidity. It was the old pallet factory. The one we used to ride our bikes around in their parking lots...even when they yelled at us. Then we stole some wood from them so we could build our tree house that we never did build. *smiles* it's what happens during childhood. So much happening these days... The band banquet was tearful...I missed my senior year! I missed my senior year! I hurt so bad...feel so lonely...it's sad. I know I could not have survived it...and it hurts when Sis starts poking me telling me that I should have done this and that...like I could and then she says it's all my fault. What can I do? Curl up in a ball and cry! I miss what I missed...leave me that pain...don't add to it. I didn't even get a plaque even though I played for two years! I understand though...they weren't my senior years... Choir was fun no matter how short it was. I enjoyed singing...maybe that will help me. I just want to do somethign without my mom and sis...what can I do? *sighs* I've no social life and now Ryker is complaining to me that he has none. At least I work...*smiles* I did go visit him today. It was nice. We played nintendo. *smiles* old days coming back. I just want to be friends forever...*smiles* good night my love...remember that tomorrow is another day and there will always be another path to trudge down. *hugs* to the stars...good night...