I have a huge sinus headache...anyway... My boyfriend is opening up his mission papers. He's with family and friends in Springville. I'm all alone in Ephraim...And yes, I've already cried about it. I'm gonna miss that boy. So here's the deal with my friends...how I feel about each one...you guys can be offended or not, just realize it is your choice...alphabetically... Katie - I miss her sooo much, but we've changed and aren't the same. Too many differences, but she is a great person. I am so happy that I have her msn...thanks Megan! Kellie - My lovely Kellie...I wish I could comfort her more. She is so beautiful and talented...she deserves the best in the world...and I hope she gets it. Kirri - My fantastic and wonderful cousin. I'm so proud of her...she is my superhero! I hope that someday I can be exactly like her! oh...please... Maria - She's amazing...too much like me for her own good, but amazing none the less...how's that work if she's a lot like me? anyway...She's engaged...how can that be? She's known him longer than she's known me...so I think they'll make it. She talks about him soo much and with such love...I love that girl. Megan - I love her with all my heart, but I've lost her. She hurt me...and I dunno what to say about it. I'm just tired of being hurt, and that was pretty much a stab in the back. I waited for her and than she went with Kaylee...She's wonderful and beautiful! I know she is going great places, I just hope she softens up. Misty - I love her too...oh I love all of you. She got me sick though...how sad. I know that she is a great person, sometimes I feel really pushed around by her though. I don't think she realizes it, so I don't hold it against her or anything. I don't know that I could share a room with her though. Nate Boyer (boyfriend) - gorgeous, dear boy...I love him for his quarkiness...he is such a nerd. He is a wonderufl friend...I don't know that we'd match for marriage, but we are good friends. And for once I can say that I don't regret anything in our relationship. What a wonderful person. Nate Harris (missionary) - I miss him sooo much! He's doing good I bet. Haven't heard from him lately. I hope I do soon...what a great friend. Ryker - I love him soooo much, but it doesn't matter. I deserve better. it's been a long time since I thought of marrying anyone else, but I finally do. He has sooo much potential. I hope he realizes that. Good luck to him...maybe if he straightened out I could have him...not likely though. Sara - My sister! I am really proud of her. She has helped me through so much. I don't know that I could ever repay her. She is gorgeous and will probably find a great guy soon. Good thing Derek isn't in the picture...she'll go far. Anyone else? My roommates... Kaylynn, Kimber, Kristen, Misty, Shi Chin, and Ling...wonderful bright girls. I hope we can share apartments next year too...hopefully Lisa Lacy will room with me... I write for the newspaper (Snow Drift) It's pretty neat. Hopefully I'll be an editor next semester...we'll see what happens. I'm sooo sick...I wanted to see Nate open his papers...why couldn't I? I still want to cry about it...not fair. *sighs* I talked to Shaun...that was interesting. learned what he thought he is doing...it's kinda annoying me. I'm a big girl...I can take care of myself. *sighs* stupid boys. I got a new laptop...that's kinda nice, but I'm too sick to spend a lot of time on it. I'm gonna go...maybe sleep...or just read other journals... hope I didn't offend anyone too much...*hugs and kotc* bye dears