It was sooo fun. I wonder if Meg is going to Matt's thing. I should call and see. I think I'll do that right now. He was having a scone party. It's his birthday. He's sixteen...maybe I can go on a date with him! lol...j/k I can't do that. It was fun though. We talked about everything and laughed about nonstop. It seemed like a really short ride. I opened up to Megan and it felt good. I trust her again. It's such a load off the back to trust her again...it's been like a hole in my chest and an extra rock in my stomach. I miss that girl...we should drug her father and make him let her hang out with me again...I need my Megan! Ok...anyway... Nate is now 19. freaky...and he's having a party that Doug is throwing...I guess. still a little confused. I miss that boy. Maybe he'll get me a job if I can't get myself one. Sara got a job without me...I'm going to cry. Maybe I can make the guy like me enough to let us work together. It's not like we'd have the same job anyway...*sighs* at least she helped me fill out applications... Let's see what tomorrow brings...like sleeping in! oh please oh please! love, Natalie M.