Listening to: Kasabian-club foot
Feeling: hopeful
Wow...it's autumn again...this is the longest i've ever been sober since i was 12. i finally saw what was hidden for so long.i'm on a journey to find my potential.my life.i'm really confused on what to do right now.i know what i want to do..go back to school,get my own place again..have a life.find love again.i've just got alot of walls i have to break down.i still can't beleive i was almost army bound.i look back on it and think i got lucky.or maybe i just wasn't meant to go?either way being a week away from basic and having already sworn in and getting a phone call saying that a slight mistake made by my recruiter defaulted me from my service was more releaving than i thought..skip in time..i've got to get a better job.one that i can afford to live on..i have a chane to move away.i'm really starting to consider it..i need someone to talk to.someone in particular..i'm just scared to...anyway i can't stop listening to these two songs by silversun pickups.. the lyrics have sparked somthing,the music fuels the fire..
future foe scenarios
the things we laid do not amount to much
made of abandoned wood loose stones and such
this revolution baby
proves who you work for lately
release the castaways who run amok
from self appointed winds which blow and such
when present tense gets strangled in the mire
made of our cozy decomposing wires
who do you work for baby
and does it work for you lately
but when the night is over and the walls start burning
when fire starts to matter and the clock is churning
cliches and other chatter keeps our minds from
learning
it's alright
the things we laid do not amount to much
made up of thought balloons and cotton swabs
when present tense gets strangled in the woes
made of our future foe scenarios
this revolution baby
proves who you work for lately
who do you work for baby
and does it work for you lately
but when the night is over and the walls keep linking
when fire starts to matter and the clock keeps sinking
cliches and other chatter keeps our minds from
thinking
our minds keep thinking
it's alright
that's when it turned on me
a motorcade of 'meant to be's'
parades of beauty queens
where soft entwines make kindling
these many detailed things
like broken nails and plastic rings
will win by keeping me
from speaking to my new darling
and there's no way to know
our future foe scenarios
that's when it turned on me
where bobby pins hold angel wings
it's alright
Rusted Wheel
so you can't hold a star in your hand though
at least you can hold on to another plan
rusted wheel planted still
i can tell it's summer from the
size of the bugs that fly through my window
flying through my window
rusted wheel planted still
rusted wheel can't move on
i can tell it's winter from the
size of the lump in my throat
got a lump in my throat
rusted wheel planted still
rusted wheel can't move on
and it feels just like the ground
but trapped in another way
just still in the ground
and it feels just like the ground
and trapped in another way
just still in the ground
so you can't hold a star in your hand though
at least you can move on to that better plan
rusted wheel planted still
rusted wheel can't move on...
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