so im sitting at home doing nothing.fun.class at 1:00.why do i miss her so?i see her tonight.i just realized how much ilove that cute little freckle on her neck.this diary is stupid.all i do is talk about the same stuff over and over again.this and school are all thats in my life.i went by Martinezes last night.he was upset.feeling down.i chilled with him for a bit and tried to cheer him up.we have a show friday.we are going to be on the radio really soon.i'm excited.i just like her so much.her ears,her eyes,her nose,that smile with those lips.her legs and that cute little butt.i love her the most though.her as a person.the way she talks or gets over excited too easily.her habits that i see.her taste in music.her style.i never know whats going on in that head.probably a good thing.she dosnt think so but she's got the cutest little stomach.she's my cup of tea.ah,im in love.i like it, so bad, but not like this.i'll remain what i am for now and dream of tonight.i'm sorry if i get so excited.i just like to see you.interact with you.talk to you.i don't know about you but my day dosn't seem complete without doing one of the three.i don't know.i'm fucking hopeless chassing after a dream.i hate myself for it.putting myself and everyone through all of this.she should have told me to fuck off.not that i want that.man,i want to help her so bad.i just wish i knew how.all i can do is be here for her.talk to her when her mom freaks out.i don't know.i'd do ANYthing for this girl,anything.well,i can think of some stuff i wouldn't do.i have to look at a play scheduale and stuff.i feel like i'm going to puke.well...i don't know what to do anymore.never really have i guess.