You're all just as scared as me, right? Tell me it is normal to be in the grips of fear when you think about how your life is going. It's not good, but it's normal, right? It's okay for me to burst into tears for unexplainable reasons, isn't it? To feel like a pussy? How about being in denial? Is anyone out there being in denial about anything? Tell me there is. Brick walls keep people out. However, it does make it kind of hard for the person behind the brick wall to get out. I've been told that I can be a brick wall. It's funny, a few years ago this person told me that I put up a wall around me everytime we talked. Just recently the same person told me that I was like a brick wall. Do you see the difference? Do you see how it suggests that over the years I've become even more...what? Hard? Unfeeling? Emotionless? Heartless? I cannot leave this place, and yet I know I must. It is damaging for my brain cells.