HEY. I haven't been around because my internet connection is a real turn-off, I haven't had anything worth writing about and..umm..yea, I've been lazy. I've spent the last hour or so perusing this really helpful website about digestive diseases. Sounds lovely, doesn't it? Some of you may have heard that I've been having this 'uncomfortable' feeling in my stomach for the past week now. For awhile (and actually at my most paranoid moments I still feel this way) I thought that it might be my appendics, but after reading up on various digestive diseases I've come to the conclusion that it's probsbly *hopefully* nothing more than Irritable Bowel Syndrome. I really don't want to get into the details. I'm too scared to go to the doctor, can you believe it? (Though I did last week, and he said that it wasn't my appendics.) But anyway if it doesn't go away soon I'll go get myself checked out again. Today is the 100th day anniversary of my grandfather's passing. I keep wondering whether this void will ever disappear. I guess it won't, and it actually probably shouldn't. It's just sad, and I think I'm still trying to deal with it. And the best way for me to do that is to not think about it. Always. Always, always, always. I also wonder if my sudden obsession about different ailments plaguing me is a delayed reaction of dealing with the situation. I don't think it is, though, because I know that I can just be crazy like that. It's already 415 pm, Yaaaang, you asked me to ring you at 4 to wake you, and you're still not answering!! I don't know why I like to talk to Azzi like he actually reads this shit. For that matter, who actually does?