4:17 am
He is all around me. I can see him all around me.
But still sometimes I treat him like he is nothing.
7:55 pm
I think I'm finally out of mourning. I just realized it today, though I think it's been a few weeks already since I came out of it. And I realized it because I feel like I'm back to acting like an idiot again, because I'm not being good.
Like, what kind of idiot can't even keep a promise to themselves? What kind of idiot doesn't learn from their mistakes? I am so easily tempted into doing the wrong things. I must be the worst idiot of all, to know that I am doing all the wrong things and still be unwilling to change my ways.
I feel like I'm in a tug-of-war, and I'm up against myself.
And I've been trying to be stronger, religiously and spiritually...But I still end up making the wrong choices, I keep tripping up. I guess there are just some things God won't help you with?
I am burnt out.
Okay? :-D Take care Miss Puss.
you just have to be willing..
sizzle *sss*
..hah.
im always afraid to leave comments regarding *Him*...becasue some get offended an all that jazz..
..think of all the good things that could come from doing good...and all the rewards you'd recieve.
i think the reason i'm willing is im the baby of six..and i'v seen the bad side of things.. yeh..
can i add u?
even though..being the baby sometimes can make people think your spoiled... you get alot of examples..and you learn from them the most..
- sarah