i'll teach you

4:17 am He is all around me. I can see him all around me. But still sometimes I treat him like he is nothing. 7:55 pm I think I'm finally out of mourning. I just realized it today, though I think it's been a few weeks already since I came out of it. And I realized it because I feel like I'm back to acting like an idiot again, because I'm not being good. Like, what kind of idiot can't even keep a promise to themselves? What kind of idiot doesn't learn from their mistakes? I am so easily tempted into doing the wrong things. I must be the worst idiot of all, to know that I am doing all the wrong things and still be unwilling to change my ways. I feel like I'm in a tug-of-war, and I'm up against myself. And I've been trying to be stronger, religiously and spiritually...But I still end up making the wrong choices, I keep tripping up. I guess there are just some things God won't help you with? I am burnt out.
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oh?
well, I am not totally sure why I chose to say "oh," but I was saying it in response to the fact that overall, I just wasnt sure exactly what you were referring to in this entry, but I really just hope you are okay and continue to be okay.

Okay? :-D Take care Miss Puss.
God will help you with everything..

you just have to be willing..
ohyes. he's the epitimy of hottness you could lick your index finger, touch his bum and he'd
sizzle *sss*
..hah.
im always afraid to leave comments regarding *Him*...becasue some get offended an all that jazz..
..think of all the good things that could come from doing good...and all the rewards you'd recieve.
i think the reason i'm willing is im the baby of six..and i'v seen the bad side of things.. yeh..
can i add u?
your the baby too? thas cool

even though..being the baby sometimes can make people think your spoiled... you get alot of examples..and you learn from them the most..
we all could make those promises to ourselves. it would make everybody better in a long run. if you have trouble keeping promises to yourself, start with little things. promise yourself that you'll do better in one class before you promise all of them, the same thing goes with other stuff. promise to go to church more, then promise to be closer to god. take things one step at a time; you are your own worst enemy, don't give into yourself...
[Anonymous]
i like your diary.. sry you were mourning but its good your out of it.
- sarah
[Anonymous]
hehe, yeah, I was definitely a weeeee bit tipsy when I was typing that up. Just ramblin'.