Because it's the Chinese New Year, I can hear fireworks going off in my neighbourhood all the time, even during the day. So last night, while I was in bed, I tried to imagine if the sound of the fireworks were the sound of bombs instead, or gunfire, or any other kind of war-type sounds. You see, after the 9/11, and all the other events that have occured since, I began to fear two things: The breaking of another world war, and the coming of the apocalypse. These two things I fear make me feel like I should dedicate myself more towards being a good Muslim. Because in the end, I know only one thing can save me, and I know where I want to end up. What I don't know is if I could end up there with the way I'm living now. But sometimes I think, if I have unshakeable faith in my religion, and in my God and all that, even without being an extremely pious person, then that should be enough, shouldn't it? You get the idea? And then I think that I could be damned to hell for thinking this way, because I know I need to show that I really mean what I say; about having faith in Him. --------------------------------------------- I talk a lot, but I don't seem to take a whole lot of action. Damn me.