got caught shoplifting... very much grounded... got a fine to pay... need job... won't resort to prostitution this time... on the up side... got to see kyle!!!! OMFG!!! he's sooo hot!!! (and not to mention, a REALLY good kisser....^^) But we were only together for a short amount of time..... *sniffles* and now i probably won't be able to see him fo a couple weeks.... but it'll be worth the wait... i wish he were here right now... more saddness.... cut on saturday.... A LOT! carved "DUMB" into my left sholder and underlined it... a lot of blood... also slit my left wrist in two places and two little deep cuts on my left leg..... can you tell i'm right handed^^ and now my parents know that i cut.. (it was kinda funny though, cause my dad walked in when i was asleep and i had blood still spilling out over my sholder, and he didn't even notice...^^) NOTE TO KYLE: don't worry, it was just an in the moment thing.. no more.... i don't want you worrying when there is nothing to worry about... i love you sooo much, and i am taking care of myself (for the most part) back to the shoplifting thing... i was with Kyla and i think that she told Erica, who will probably tell the whole school... Erica walks up to me this morning and says "so, what store?".... Kyla says that she didn't tell Erica, that Erica found out from Chris.. but how the hell did Chris find out?!?!?!?! i don't know.... oh well... ERICA'S A BITCH!!!! it's funny because i could have got her in so much trouble, her dad called me saturday night and asked if i knew where she was... (btw: she was with Chris, who she REALLY isn't supose to be with) and i went along with the story that she was at Hannah's... SEE!! I'M A GOOD FRIEND, WHY THE HELL CAN'T SHE BE ONE?!?!?!?!?! oh well.. Kyla and me are like her only friends, and i don't think that i really want to be friends with her anymore... Wow, that's a lot... didn't mean to write that much.... hehe^^ KYLE: i'll call you when i can.... call me when you can, my mom will let me talk to you for a little bit... I LOVE YOU!!!!*big hug and kisses*