Okay... I need to let you know some things… About two weeks into us not talking this time, I hated you… I still loved you, but I hated you more… Rewind… when we were talking… you know that my life at the time was pretty shitty… but there was still one good thing in my life… you… and so I only focused on you… that’s why I was all obsessive and always wanted to talk to you… (And I’m sorry for being that way) Fast forward… back to when I hated you… you were the only good thing in my life and then you just basically left my life… so I had nothing good... I didn’t know what to do… because I had put so much energy into you and our relationship... and that was gone… I couldn’t talk to you... I wasn’t even sure where you were, or what was going on with you… so honestly... I forgot… I tried to lock you out of my mind because I didn’t want to remember you, because if I remembered you then it would just remind me that you weren’t there anymore… And so I had all of this energy, and time that I didn’t know what to do with, so I focused it into other things in my life… my family and school, and friends and other relationships… So I have to thank you for two things… One: for making me happy and m life seem better when everything else was so horrible… Two: for ignoring me for the past month and a half… I know that sounds like something strange to be thankful for... But I am… you gave me time to straighten things out and make the rest of my life good… I just wanted you to know that the rest of my life is good and A LOT better… there is just one thing that I find to be missing… some one to care about and love as much as they care about and love me… and I’m sort of hoping that you still want to be that person… And I don’t just want you to leave me a message on here… please call me and let me know… I miss talking to you… actually talking to you… I know that one of the things that was bothering you about being with me was that my life wasn’t exactly the best and it was effecting me and how I was acting… so I just wanted to let you know that I have straightened that out… I love you and I hope to hear from you soon…