I want it to be the end of the world. It would make things sooo much easier…. Not having to worry about getting the good career and becoming successful.. just living life… But then again, I’m not sure I even want to do that anymore… I mean, it is interesting… and I would like to see what happens next…. But each day I’m finding it harder and harder to get out of bed… I just don’t want to go out into the world… I want to stay inside… I can always call my connections to the outside world… Scott, James… a few others…. Though not to many others…. That is the other thing… people are slowly going away… even new people are leaving…. But there are also a few new people that I think may stay for a while… But why do these people like me??? Is it because of me, who I am…. Or is it because they are wanting something from me??? My money… my brains…. Sex…. Who knows… can I trust anyone anymore??? Should I ever again??? Trust has been shattered… can it be repaired??