krystal told me she didn't mean it... WHAT THE FUCK??? oh well... ya'll know me... i forgave her and took her back... of course.... I FUCKING LOVE GETTING HURT!!! (or at least i seem to)... ********************************************* still haven't heard from kyle... not sure i'm ever going to... oh well... if he doesn't want to be with me, i suppose he doesn't have to... after all, i ALWAYS seem to fall in love with people who never feel the same way... ********************************************* back on drugs a little... just caffine pills... and weak OTC painkillers, but it's enough... and drinking a little.. but only when my mom's too drunk herself to realize i'm a little tipsy... ********************************************* LIFE IS SUCH A FUCKING BITCH!!!!! ********************************************* my wrists itch... i need to stratch them... ********************************************* been too horny for my own good lately... messing around with any guy who smiles at me... ********************************************* I'M SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT!!!! ********************************************* life is somewhat interesting though... i can't wait to see what happens next...