Still haven’t been able to talk to Kyle for very long… called him last night, and he said he was just about to head out to go see “Silent Hill”… oh well, I’ll try again tonight probably… Right now it’s just more of letting him know that I’m REALLY not sure that I even want to be with him… KYLE: I’m tired of this… you told me you wanted to get back with me, that you were sorry, that you’d try your hardest not to let me down again… and guess what!!! YOU DID LET ME DOWN AGAIN!!! I really fucking like you!!! Don’t you get that??!?!?!?! And I’m not trying to be all controlling or anything, I know I’ve said this before, but I don’t think that you really get it, so I’m gonna say it again: YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE YOUR OWN LIFE, I WOULD JUST LIKE TO BE PART OF IT!!! And that would mean being able to talk to you even for more than five minutes, if only once a week. I care about you… A LOT… and I really want to be with you… even after all of this shit, I still want to be with you… I don’t know if it’s just the “abused puppy syndrome” talking, or if I really feel this way, but I do want to be with you… It’s just that I really don’t think that you want to be with me… And if that is how you feel, that’s okay… JUST LET ME KNOW!!!!!!!!!!! If I can’t talk to you before the end of next week… that would be Friday, May 5… just know then that is it over… I really hope that I can get a hold of you before then…