does anyone care??? i'm gonna get the info to send brandon a letter from his mom... hopefully tonight... it's been almost a year since he went to prison... will he remember me??? if there is one thing that i have learned from all of my experiences with all of these guys it's that there has been only one guy who didn't actually intend to hurt me.. and when he found out he did, he apoligized... i miss him... he was my first kiss... my first love... we were engaged... twice... can i really wait five more years for him to get out??? i think i can... i think i can... i think i can... (the little engine that could!!! YES!!!) i still love him... brandon that is... and yes, i still have feelings for kyle... but he's waited too long... if he wanted to apoligize, he's had plenty of chances... i'm not really dying... though i feel like i should be... i winder if brandon already has someone waiting for him... that's be just my luck, wouldn't it??? oh well... if it's not meant to be, it just isn't... i miss the way he made me feel... loved... important... worthwhile... no one else has been able to give me those feelings... I WANT MY FAIRYTALE ENDING DAMNIT!!!!