So I'm talking to Kyle again... so if you want to... go ahead and SHOOT ME!!!! lol... I know I keep going back on my word when it comes to him... but I really do love him... more than James, Ken, Joey, all of them... even more than Kyla... (sry sweetie, but it's the truth...) I know I've been a really annoying little bitch to him, but he still talks to me... but once again I'm left wondering if it's just because he wants sex... it seems that's all we're talking about... the only way I can get his attention... Almost seems like another Brandon... says all the nice stuff, but I'm just not sure he means it... I wish that I could know that he does mean it though... I want to be with him so bad... and hopefully after he gets his license, he'll come see me and we can be close... but I'm just not sure how close he is expecting to be... I'm too much of a fucking tease... I mean there is a lot that I want to do with him... and I say that I will... but I'm not sure that I'm going to... (and if you're reading this, it's probably good, because these are all of the things I want to say, but never do...) Yes... I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!! But I'm not actually going to say it to you until you say it to me... (I'm not even sure why I'm saying it here... maybe to try to get you to say it faster... BUT DON'T YOU DARE SAY IT UNLESS YOU MEAN IT!!!) My love life is so fucked up... as soon as I give up and just want a break, all of these guys come back into my life... When I called Kyle, I expected him to say that he was busy right away and hang up... but he actually talked to me, granted it was only 20 minutes, but he told me to call back later, and when I did... he actually answered again!!!!! And we talked for an hour... I just don't know... If you have any advise at all... please give it to me... I'm sick of making so many mistakes when it comes to love...