wow you have no idea. ok so nick likes me and i still haven't given him too much thought. idk....it's kinda hard to like him since we haven't hung out or anything. and patrick and i had an awesome conversation yesterday which, in a nutshell, says that we both still like each other. 3 hours is a long way though and i don't think i'm ready for a long distance relationship. and then there's this curly haired guy in my band class,ryan,...nicole u know who i mean. awww...he is SO cute. he reminds me of patrick. lol. i always go for guys with brown & curly hair, and they're always so skinny. i could break them like a twig. lol. cause i'm pretty muscular for a girl so u get the idea~haha. i can't help it though...i go crazy for a curly haired guy. idk what it is, it's just so....CURLY! lol. wah! so idk if i should try getting to know ryan or just wait it out, which would probably result in me being alone. wouldn't it just be easier if he started liking me too? yeah i think so. that would be nice. never seems to work that way. i had to get patrick to notice me and look where we are now. i've never felt stronger for anyone than i did for patrick and it never would have happened if i hadn't called him. so all u gurls out there..take charge and go get your man. so what if you have to work for it...in the end it'll most definitly be worth it. ;) so this is my quandary for the day. haha. hope u enjoy it cause it's kinda gettin old for me. i just don't know what to do anymore. last night i had the goofiest smile on my face from patrick and today it was from ryan. so i guess it breaks down like this: as of right now i have the best chance w/ nick, second w/ ryan, and last with patrick just b/c of the distance. i just need to stop thinking. lol. and we're done. bye guys...have an awesome weekend! God bless u, *manda*