today started out pretty darn great. had a dream about him again last night. what can i say? 10 years is a long time to like a person..it's not as though you're just gonna automatically get over him right? gah..but courtney is trying to help me..thanks for listening today court - it def. did help. bleh....why does he have to be so..him? i mean i love the way he is and i like him for him, but why can't he be as into it as me. or at least show it. TAKE CHANCES. if you couldn't tell my day progressively got worse - maybe i can make tomorrow better. holy crap, i think i've spent at least 5 hours on my computer total since i've been home. i need to work out. or get off my butt and do something. i need to get back into the groove of things..i'm so out of it right now. i try studying like normal and i can't concentrate. i think i have issues. gah! i need cheerleading..or gymnastics..something to challenge me mentally and physically. somebody take this computer away from me..it's becoming a part of my every day life and that's just sad. in fact, if i didn't have my computer i'd be lost..and that's just not right. new rule - manda can only spend a limited amount of time on her computer daily. hmmm let's say 3 hours? that's not very much..we'll see how long that lasts...haha. **************** i'm such a loser... i come home after school..sit on my computer for a while..do some hw..realize there's still like 7 hours before i have to go to bed and do it all over again..do some more computer stuff..i have no social life. nobody calls and i call no one. however..i do watch nifty documentaries like the one about pete schmidt...that's some high quality entertainment right there. http://www.peteschmidtmusic.com/documentary.html gotta love 'em *well...i guess it's back to doin nothing. i think i'll call courtney and get help with this whole shakespeare ordeal. oy. ♥manda