today started out badly but then got better. this was a truly grueling week but those types of things always result in perseverance so i'm looking forward to that. i definitly feel better now that tomorrow is friday. that week just drug on and on. whew. i've come to the conclusion that working isn't so bad after all...especially once you get paid. good stuff good stuff. money isn't everything however...common misconception!!! lol. i love you guys! thanks for the comments 'n all that jazz! God bless! ♥manda ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ i'm really scared to forget about patrick after he's been such a focused part of my life since i can remember...i guess the problem is that i've been putting too much focus on him though. but, though i feel selfish, i need closure. what are his thoughts? what does he expect me to do? the sad thing is i would take him back in a second and he knows that. yet he continues to be ignorant and refuses to even try - that's when you know things aren't working out. i've been praying about it so in the end God will do what He knows is best; my mood in the meantime depends upon weather or not i want to follow what He has planned for me. "i tried leaving you behind...but you wouldn't stay."