ok well i never really found out what all that punishment stuff was about but it doesn't matter now, and i don't beliebve he would ever do anything of that sort to me, if he did he would then go and kill himself. This whole situation is completely crazy and weird, but because of thst it makes life exciting at times. I was in town with him (chris) yesterday, Becky as well, it was quite weird really cos it was the first time i'd seen him after getting rid of my feelings for him, but he was still flirting with me, which was tending to get on my nerves a bit. He did notice the difference in atmosphere and was asking about it in the evening, so Becky told him that i was over him, and he admitted that he did actually have feelings for me but didn't know if it was right so didn't say anything, hmm. Well that confused me cos i'd always thought that during the time i've liked him he didn't like me back in the same way. It's all weird & hard to explain, but we've been discussing what we've each imagined happening between us, and scarily we've both imagined similar things. But i have to stop those imaginations now to move on, which i am determinedish to do. Moving on is the best thing to do, cos otherwise i'm hurting myself. I WILL move on, however hard Chris reckons it is, and however much he says we don't have to, i do & i will! I must be at least halfway there by now anyway. I love God!! He's the best!! If you don't believe & trust in him, then you don't know what you're missing out on & i feel sorry for you. God loves you, he loves you so much that he sent his one and only son to die for you, that you may be forgiven and have eternal life.