*sighs* will it ever get better?! I'm so fed up with school and things at the mo, i have no feeling of friendship towards people, i just feel isolated. charlie kept trying to bite me today & there really was no need for it & it annoyed me, then she just went off with stacy so i was like fine! and when i was trying to talk to her, about good stuff she wasnt interested. Yesterday at church i managed to talk to Ruth about things, she was sympathetic, and suggested i told tom my side of the story, so i emailed him, he's had it i just dont know what his reaction is & i havent seen him today, but he has kinda spoke to me. I'm only going into school cos i need to pass my A Levels to get the hell out of this place, but its a drain & struggle to keep going, the summer seems such a long way off. Becky wasnt in school today, and i just dont seem to be able to connect or sympathise with her, its like she's off on her own little planet that i cant get to & dont understand. plus i'm sick of the whole self harming, and being around people related to it. i mentioned that theres too much of it around to Ruth & its not good. she's the first adult i've managed to speak to since the caroline incident. Yesterday afternoon i was at the GB promotion service, tom's cousin Amy was there so i said hi. and lisa and caroline were there, i really wanted to talk to lisa but wouldnt have been able to properly with helen there, and when i did start having a conversation with her katie bounded over and leapt on her & totally interrupted & really pissed me off.