Hey! Just looked at my previous post & saw how down i was, not quite as bad as i was tuesday night but still bad. Anyways i'm pretty happy now, was fantastically happy yesterday, but have come down a bit now and am a bit concerned about my mates who arent happy. i last posted weds 20th & i had a crap week without talking to tom, didnt talk to him at all until tues eve, cos he kept avoiding me, avoiding any kind of contact, until then when online he was like "why should i be the one talking to u when u dont talk to me" etc & the conv kinda went on like that & he basically wanted to leave things there & not talk to me ever again & say goodbye & good luck for uni, i didnt want that, told him so & told him the easy way isnt the best way & that i wasnt prepared to give up on our friendship that easily, didnt really help anything, i still went to bed & cried my eyes out & not being able to cope anymore, so i cried & read my bible & cried out to God cos he was the only one who could help me & sort me out. Wednesday i went into school feeling low, so managed to tell charlie everything & show her the conv & cried on her, which helped a bit. then tom came along to talk to her, i made a jokey comment to him, and he came and sat by us & as a 3 we were talking & joking & it was good. Then yesterday i had a fantastic day, in tutor period we were doing about the election, and split into parties, tom was in a different group, but when the spokes people were (attempting to) promoting their party i was looking at him & just smiling, he looked away at first, but then held my eye contact. Later in the afternoon he came down to where i was sat & i talked to him & he was teasing me & i hit him & he just put his arms out & said "come here" & gave me a big hug :) he went to his lesson but came back later & i was with charlie & we had a big mess around, teasing charlie cos he was turning her on & i ended up sat on his lap for ages & hugging him & it was just like old times but better cos i didnt take it for granted. And its all good, we're friends again, i'm pretty sure he still doesnt believe me that i didnt use him, and that he's trying not to trust me, but its amazing how quickly we've gone back into the messing around, i thought it'd take longer, especially as we'd not spoken to each other in person for months!!! but God is an amazing God & he's sorted stuff out properly, even for sceptics there cannot be any other explanation as to how tom went from tues night not wanting to speak to me ever again & saying goodbye then, to him messing around & teasing me midday on the weds, when no one else knew what had been said in the conv & what my reaction was in enough time to have a chance to speak to him about it, other than God, who knows everything!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD! PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS, HE LISTENS AND ANSWERS!!!!