Had a pretty lousy day, my arm has been killing me, its sort of ok when typing but lets me know about it when i write. I was extremely pissed off with charlie over a text she sent me last night which said that i created all my problems and i need to stop with the self pity & sort myself out, i know she meant the best but i really did not need that! we've made up, but she got in with the whole, look at it from other people's point of view thing first, she seemed to think it was all self pity & didnt really seem to get that i don't want to be at GB cos i'm not enjoying myself rather than it being cos no one paid me any attention. Apparently i'm meant to be showing initiative there by doing things off my own bat, but theres nothing to do!! There are so many leaders that someone is always doing things that need to be done. I got some random text's from chris' phone today, but not off him, mainly they were from becky & that was obv, but then i got one saying 'i luv u', turned out to be Rajay's doing, but not what i needed, cos whilst i know chris doesn't love me, its still a harsh thing to do to me, but anyway. They stole chris' phone and wouldnt give it him back which was pretty funny, they did in the end, apparently he had a biology gcse re-take exam, hmm. Awww bless, i got this really nice fwd, well i've seen it before, but it was special because of who it was from and the whole GB thing last night and what charlie said today, its a poem written after the september 11th thing and its about telling people that you love them & not just assuming they know it & doing things instead of leaving them for tomorrow cos you might regret not doing it, aww she does love me. This is my song, i didnt choose it, it chose me, becky heard it for the first time & thought of me straight away!! I've got night hike tonight & i'm bloody knackered!! i could barely walk through town, without having to go on a 3 & 1/2 hr hike in the cold, dark and mist.