so busy busy busy at the mo, just managed to grab some time to come on here before tea. Not had a particuarly good day, my biology coursework had to be in today, i hadnt totally finished it last night & was gonna work on it today in school but the internet was down so i couldnt grrr, just handed it in as it was. Plus its a tuesday, the day when i tend to see a lot of chris, didnt spend as much time with him as i did last week, but then i was feeling a peeved. He hasnt done anything more about telling me any stuff, and i have good days & bad days in moving on over him & today was a bad day. To be told at the end of the day that he'd been being coupley with his girlfriend didnt help much really, just confuses me more about the situation cos he says he doesnt really like her as more than a friend, and makes me a little jealous even tho i dont actually want to go out with him, confusing huh? I was thinking on the bus earlier, its hard enough as it is to get over your first love, and its hard being a Christian too, so i have both of them, plus being a Christian in this situation isnt easy cos it means that whilst trying to move on from loving him i find that i still love him as a friend, and when he's in trouble/upset i still want to help him, even when i know that its best for my sake to leave him alone, its always looking out for him that wins cos i care & i figure alot of that has got to do with the fact that i'm Christian & Jesus would & does care about him & wants me to do the same, it really doesnt make my life easy for moving on most of the time!!