hmm 4 exams down, 1 to go. dont think todays one went particuarly well to be honest, i wrote loads but i'm sure i didnt write enough of the right stuff to get loads of marks, but i have an A and a B in the subject from earlier in the year, so God willing. Havent started revising for fridays exam yet :s will try & start tonight! Then after that, i have the small issue of my leavers ball on friday evening, its going to be interesting at least. i'm going in a limo, mainly with people i rarely talk to, one of which caused the fuss that ended in tom not coming in the limo with us cos she doesnt like him. i really want to enjoy myself at the ball, its our last big event together. however theres certain people issues: tom - i've seen him once in the last 4 weeks & that was before an exam, i'm not sure how i feel towards him, but theres been alot of emotion between us & we've missed each other & found it hard being away from each other the past few weeks. plus he's planning to get drunk, so all self control will be up to me. chris - well after months of not talking, we've been talking again over the past week, and fairly decent convs too, and altho i'm not convinced that theres no ulterior motive behind things he says he's been behaving himself. i havent spoken to him in person, or seen him so i dont know what emotion that'll bring out in me. or whether if the situation arises i should/could dance with him?! charlie - she's planning to drink which i already have issues with, and she's already had a go at me & warned me that there will be trouble if i tell the bar staff that she's underage. spending any time with her at the moment seems to irritate or depress me, i can just see how so very different our attitudes to life & things are. i want to have a good time, but i'm also aware that my behaviour will have consequences & i dont want to hurt people, i also have morals. meh ----------------edit--------------------- meh i feel i should talk to tom, but i've just sat here appearing offline despite him being online, i dont know what to say to him, i dont know how i feel & you know what it shouldnt matter that we havent been physically around each other, we should still be able to talk, so why do i feel so unsure & uncomfortable?????