O great just to add to my 'wonderful' mood, it decides to time out, log me out & lose the diary entry i just spent half-an-hour typing, that takes the piss!! Just got back from Girls' Brigade, really didn't want to be there at all & it was a horrible evening & i got so fed up with it all, theres no point me being there, i don't do anything and nobody needs me there, so whats the point?! During the whole eve the only person who spoke nicely to me and actually asked and cared about what is up with me was Matt, no one else bothered, not even my 2 so called friends, 1 of them was even being not very nice to me and having a go. I spent the eve sat on the side watching them do stuff, Matt does the games, Becky & Mrs Cox vanished into the other room & Caroline was doing the craft, she gave me a job to do then people kept coming and taking over, she heard me say something to Matt about it (cos i'd told him that i saw no point in being there & i wasn't needed) & Caroline overheard & goes 'Right here you go you can do your own' in a really nasty voice, after that i just avoided talking to anyone. Rose phoned to talk about Young Enterprise, and that was a good bit to a horrible evening, and even then becky took my phone to talk to Rose, we didnt say bye until i was in the car to go home. Becky's mom wasn't there so she got a lift home with Caroline as well, which meant Caroline didnt talk to me properly, & we didnt hug & so thats been 4 weeks now at least since i've had a decent conversation with her, i guess that doesn't really help with my attitude towards her, why should she care anymore?! O and it doesn't help that my right arm really hurts when i move, its spooky that its the same arm as chris just had an operation on!! I just spoke to charlie on the phone & cried telling her the stuff about tonight, she cares even if my other so called friends don't, see i said good things wouldn't last for long!!! Why does life hate me so much?