met up with chris today & went to the grassy area near my church, we were talking & then he wanted a reason to why i didn't think i was pretty & i don't have one, so he grabbed my hands & was trying to get me to tell. he pulled me over several times onto him, he's really comfy to lie on, and he was putting his arms around me & holding my head close to his. we lay on the grass for a bit, really close to each other staring each other in the eyes & i really thought he was gonna kiss me but he didn't. Later when i was texting him i asked him about it & he said he didn't like me in that way, which really doesn't make sense as we were so close when we were on the grass & the way he was acting was as though he did, and people walking past would have thought we were a couple. He's too confusing. But what now makes it worse is that my best friend is talking of going out with him, she doesn't fancy him & hasn't got or had the feelings i used to have for him, she just wants a boyfriend, which yeah i can understand, but it hurts. and its yet another thing rubbing in the fact that i'm 16 & i've never had a boyfriend, never been kissed & never been asked out & it really hurts & makes me feel depressed. why does nobody like me in that way? i just want to have someone hold me & love me, and thats what i felt with chris but now its all ruined. He has lovely sparkly blue eyes to stare into and gorgeous soft and tanned hands to hold me, BUT the fact is he's never going to go out with me, and its so damn annoying!!!!