Oh, no. This is not good. I now understand the full meaning of You've Got it Bad (which my dad keeps listening to and it's driving me crazy). I was hanging out with Cam last night, and we were having a good time, talking, snuggling, telling jokes. Then she kissed me on the cheek, and suddenly the only thing I could think about was Ella. This sucks so much! I honestly thought I was over her! And I know Cam said that I was allowed to date other people, but I don't want to and want to at the same time. And I know Cam, she probably wouldn't like it very much if I came home with a SECOND girlfriend. Besides, it's not happening between Ella and I. She doesn't like me!!! So why can't I just let it go? I have the most amazing girlfriend who understands me completely and never judges me, and I can't get another girl off my mind. I'm a horrible person. I need to forget about Ella. I need to forget the whole thing. I have to get over it, because it's never going to happen and I don't want to end up hurting Cam (even though she wont admit that she is hurt...)