Yeah so what did I tell you, me and Julian are cool now...Its weird! He wanted me to apologize for the whole fair thing but i told him how i felt and he told me that he had no idea as to how i felt and that he was so sorry. I felt alot better but to be compeletly honest, I think I'm jealous and thats not good cause its Julian... Today was ok, I went to Manuals for a little while. HE was having a little get together thing for his 21st b-day. I knew no one there but my friend Carlos but it was cool! I hadn't seen him in a while and we got to catch up. I was playing with Mannys little neices inside half the time...they are soo cute, we were reading and stuff, it was fun! I came home and thats when me and Julian talked. He had been avoiding me the whole day but oh well, everything is cool now! Ivy...I love you so much, thank you for being there for me. It sucks! I hate times like these and this feeling. I think I might consider the whole doctor thing, my mom might be right about it. But its a hard choice to make. I know deep down I'm telling myself that I dont need the help and maybe its a phase and it will pass but hey, you never know. It's nice to know that there is someone out there who knows whats going on and who has been through it, its even better when its a friend! You know if you ever need ANYTHING, I will always be here for you. Even if i cant help, I will always try and i'll be here to listen. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on...hey I've got 2! hehehe! I love you!!!