I seriously think its time for me to go. I'm so sick of crying. Today my friend got in town and I love him and all but I really don't want to see him. It has always been me and him and now he has a girlfriend...and i hate being the odd wheel. I know if i hang out with them this weekend its just gonna be hell, so i'm not even gonna try. My mom came home and starting yelling at me cause I was on the computer...I'm sorry, but I have just had it. I mean, why can't she come home and say hi first before she starts yelling. After that, I just came in my room and started crying. I hate crying! I really just need to get away. I told Adriana how I wished I could go over there and she said I could if I wanted. I feel so bad cause I know she has plans to be with her friends this weekend but she said it cool. I tired to ask my mom is i could go and our converstaion lasted about 30 seconds. I asked if i could leave and she just said "your not going anywhere, you dont deserve to!" and after that I was just like " don't be surprised if i'm not here tomorrow" After that I called my aunt cause she owed me some money and I left to go get it. My mom called me and was like where ar you going and I just told her that i was gonna get money and and then she asked why i needed money so bad, that i couldnt wait till tomorrow. I just told her that I needed to get away...then she got into the whole, how i'm not in school and how I dont have a job and asked whose fault it was. I told her that that was my choice and that i never blaimed in on anyone. She said i couldnt go alone and that I couldnt go in my car...i was just like whatever and hung up. I got the money and cried my eyes out on the way home listening to Perfect my Simple Plan. I love how that song relates to everything conversation me and my mom have. I mean, she wants me to me so much more but I can't change things jsut like that. She doesnt understand the shit that I'm going through and has much as I try to tell her...she just doesnt get it and its hurts. I mean I cant be here and have privacy or like sit here and cry without someone barging in asking whats wrong...they just dont get it and im tired of it... I honestly do question if this life was meant for me cause alot of the time, cause half the time I feel like i don't belong