Wow... i dont know what I'm feeling right now, all i wanna do it cry! I saw Will tuesday and ever since, i just don't know what i want anymore. I mean, ive just been thinking about relationships and where I'm going and just nothing makes sense to me right now! Its like the one thing i want right now, i cant have and it breaks my heart because i want it so bad! Yeah, we say things happenen for a reason, but why!? Its so hard for me to smile right now, i dont want to do anything but sit and cry! I wish i had my own place so i could just hide for a while! Last night i was talking to Dylan and i just told him i wanted to get in my car and just drive! I dont care where i'm going, or where i end up... i just want to get away! I think I'm gonna talk to Albert today and tell him that I dont want to talk to him anymore. I'm sure hes gonna be pissed and prolly bitch at me or something, but i dont know what i want right now! I really dont... and he needs to not so much understand it, but just think about it. WOW... I'm at a lose of words right now. I want to sit in bed, close my eyes and just drift somewhere! Why is it that i want it so bad but i will never have it again...