well its six in the morning once again i have slept for 4 hours and been wide awake. Now being on a night shift i shouldnt be going to bed so ealry as 2 in the morning it messes with me when i have to stay up till 8 but i dint feel good so i went to bed. Now I feel fine but my left ear is so full of fluid that i can barely hear out of it. Guess i had an allerfy attack and my ears got congested hopefully that will clear out soon. its just the one ear and its a really weird sensation. well lets see. i went to a party monday night it was nice and relaxing to see some old freinds. that was good and it made this week more barable. I got asked to start a D&D campaign which is good. it will give me something to focus during work which will make my life much better. Ive already began obessing over a world scenario and a overall plor for the campaign. So yay with some nerdy focus i will be able to focus and not be so bored all the time. Broke again. not that it matters everytime im broke monday i have money again. I like that. Making an okay amount of money for doing next to nothng and actually being able to pay off those silly bills. Ive decided that im just going to bomb my bills to death and next month one more will be gone and the then in about 4 month the big and seeminly infinite over the limit credit card debt will be eliminated. but to do that i have to bomb the one with half my money next month. no big deal it will be dead and gone and i will one more step towards being finacially stable and able to get back into school. yay education and career. need to hurry up on that one. Gots to meet that goal of having some sort of career before i am 25. After i bomb that one credit card to death i get to fly bombing raids over the other till it is consumed in the rage of my money mwahahah...no it will just absorb my money and remian invicible hehe. Naw it get to start dropping 700 a month into and it will take a meager and fun lovng 5 months to forcifully kill.. thats one tough bug. but if i dont do that i wont get any were at all...it will just absorb my payments over and over again just tickling the interest rates and other special charges. but yeah by my birhday i will actually be putting some money in my savings. OMG money in my savings i forgot that sometimes there is more then just some imaginary numbers waiting to shrink to some mythical less then 0 number. oh well i guess things are getting back on track and i actually mught just make it out of thing whole on scheduale afterall... Now that the intial i have moneyagain for the first time in 3 years phase is over its time to go back to barely looking at the money and paying the bills. atleast this time its only 3/4 of my money that is being eaten up. the other way it was 125% and that was just bnot working. mwahahaha i will have those expesisive bottles of booze for my b-day afterall. or atleast for easter hehe. bwahahaha its hard to believe that i am aslo halfway to 22 today. damnit im getting old. need to figure out how to stop that. well time to revel in being broke till monday. Atleast FFXI isnt due untill the end of the month or i might be foreced to read on my days of. ANd i get enough of that at work damnit. Reading a 600 page book every night is fun and all but four books a week is enough. If i put more useless fanatasy in there im going to have to start writting myself. hehe. Well i think im rather cheery and talkitive this morning but of course no one in there right minds is swake right now. I mean come on its reallt really really early. I should still be at work for 1,5 hours now and of course im off and cant take a nap cause im wired awake. I seem to sleep so much less now that i am eating atleast halfway healthy. Cutting the caffiene meeans cutting the sleep weird effect. Ohwell enough ranting time to do something atleast partially constructive and create a detailed world for a make believe fanasty setting for a bunch of people that are as nerdy if not nerdier then me.