Well here we are again siting in fornt of the computer with nothing better to do so here I am with another short enrty. Well I been thinking about some things that have been going on in my life and how Its all going to be changeing with me leaveing next month for the Navy. I plan to leave short little note to my ex at the end of every entry from now on and right before I leave I will email her the link to this page so she can know about all that I have been thinking about though they might end up really repetitive but oh well this is my diary so yall that dont like it will just have to deal with it or not read it doesnt really mater to me anymore. That all along those lines for now- to the note- Well I'm not really sure If you will even take the time to read this but I just felt like giveing you a chance for a daily view of my thought up till I leave. Work was hell but I know you dont care. You know what I wish I had been smart back when we were together and quit when you had asked me too. And I wish I had done a lot of things differently. I have been mostly just depressed sence the begining of Oct. and I sure you can guess why. I started up an old bad habbit that you helped me through a long time ago but I really dont see the point in not doing it anymore. I tryied to stay away from it but with out you as a goal to hold me I see no point in careing what might happen to me.I hope you are happy and things in life are going good for you I love you! bye