So I find Myself lost in thought. I have a question in my mind that I so badly want to know the answer to. DO BELEIVE THAT IT IS POSSABLE FOR SOMEONE THAT USED TO LOVE SOMEONE THAT NOW SAYS THEY DONT FEEL THAT WAY TO FALL BACK INLOVE WITH THE OTHER PERSON??? I talked to my wife about our problems told her I want to change that I want to make things different when I get home and my response was this "Yeah well, no offense but I doubt this time will be different." its as if she has already discided that she has lost all hope in me. So like I said does anyone think it is possable to still reach her heart or do you think I am just tearing myself appart for nothing. I mean I realize that the way I was being toward her was wrong and I realize that time after time I have let her down. I honestly just want to fix it all. I know that it will take time I will have to prove to her that I am the man I used to be when she married me. I know that I have messed up a lot. I feel like I have over time the more we have faught lost the motovation that I used to have I mean. I used to be a very motovated idavidual but I dont see any point in going the extra mile anymore. Maybe that was part of my problem when we started haveing problems instead of working toward fixing them I just shut down. I still can feel that fire sometimes inside me calling me to try to bust out and make things happen but I get so easly discuraged. I just need to get home I know once I am there I can acctually do something be someone acctually show her who I am. Being in the navy doesnt help that I made one of the biggest mistakes the day I signed up. Becasue well I see what it does to families now and it sickens me. I have talked to somemany people now and asked them what they think and the problem always falls back on me I am the source so cant I be the fix as well??? I guess I will find out.