Seems as though everthing goes the same every day. I get online and wait just to see if she logs on. Damn I'm pothedic. Its funny most of the people that are around me think I'm over her but thats because none around here really knows me. And how could they I wont let them its safer that way. It seemes like time is flying faster and faster drawing me closer to the time I have to leave. I read an entery of someone today mentioning wanting to travel back in time, you know what I wish I could too but this like that arent ment to. How could I have let so many other things consume my life to the point that I pushed her away, it seems now all I do is work hell I think I spend more time there then I do at home. Oh well I dont want to bore you all to death so I'll move along to my note. Hey girl its strange I started typeing these little things out but they seem to be a good way for me to let things out. There are a billion things I wish I could call you up and tell you but thats not going to happen sence I know that would just start truble and like I have always said Just be happy girl and will all work out for you.Well I guess I better shorten this up its geting time for me to move off to work so I'll be typeing another entry latter. I know you may not even look at this till after I have left but still I want you to know I love you and I miss you.